This is a very big day, Pascal

Today I started my new job. I was excited, nervous and all of the emotions wrapped into one little old me. I tried to give myself time for any mishaps in the morning even packing my lunch and eating breakfast so I wasn’t hangry later in the day. I really thought about everything and was prepared. This is when having anxiety and panic disorder pay off. I’m kidding, but it does have its moments. I’ve learned to except my struggles with my mental health and try to see the positives rather the negatives all the time.

So today I was feeling grateful for always being afraid because I was able to know the things that would trigger a panic attack for me and I did what I could to prevent those triggers from coming up. But I also did a lot of self talk in the days leading up to starting my new job and I basically just kept telling myself that “No matter what happens I always figure it out”. Because here’s the thing I have always figured it out, no matter.

I went into today with the intention of being open to what ever the universe has in store for me and my life. I didn’t want to put any pressure on myself to be perfect but to show up and be the best person I can be. I feel like I was able to achieve that today. I’m looking forward to what will happen in the next few months for me and I’ll be excited to see where I am at in a year. I feel like this is just the start to a new beginning for me. I think the best is yet to come.