Workin 9 to 5
Today I started a new morning routine and I was successful for the most part but there is still some kinks to be worked out for sure. I felt a little anxious before I was leaving for work but just going through the steps of my routine helped me to stay grounded and not let the anxiety and panic take control of me.
One thing I have noticed that really helps to start my day out on the right path is a consistent morning routine. I thrive on routine so I find that my days start off better if I allow myself plenty of time in the morning to go through each step of my routine. When I am rushed and trying to quickly get out the door I end up being anxious which sometimes can lead to a panic attack.
One of the unfortunate symptoms of my anxiety and panic disorder is that I have a hard time leaving the house. At my worst I didn’t leave unless it was for work and if I did I usually was a sweaty, anxious ,mess the entire time. This morning I had my usual anxieties about leaving home but knowing that I had a routine I needed to complete helped me to acknowledge those fears and push them aside. By having one step after another to follow I didn’t have any time to get caught up in my fears. Being able to push those fears aside instead of letting them control how I would feel today isn’t something that I’ve always been able to do but it feels good to see my hard work is starting to pay off.
As I was leaving for work today I felt I the old familiar fears of leaving the house but it didn’t have as much hold on me, and for this I couldn’t be more thankful. I think I will always have that little trigger that pops up every time I leave home but I think with time, therapy, and my own hard work I’ve gotten to a point where I don’t let that fear control my life as much. I acknowledge the fear and I walk out the door.