Reflecting on the past

I wish that I could tell the woman in this photo that her entire life would crumble before her in just a year, but that she would come out of it a stronger, confident, and independent woman. But honestly I don’t think I would have believed myself or I would have tried to do everything I could do to stop what was happening even though it was inevitable.

Its been almost a year since my life changed completely and even though some days I still have a overwhelming sense of grief for my old life I’m content with how far I’ve come over this past year. I had to give up my old life in order for me to be able to create the new life I’ve always wanted for myself.

If I hadn’t moved in with my mom a year ago I wouldn’t have had the space and time to focus on my mental health. And without that time or space I would not have had the courage to apply for a job outside of my normal career field and actually accept it when I got the job.

Just yesterday as I was driving to work I was listening to music and all of a sudden I was hit with the feeling of grief and loss for all that I used to have but even though those feelings can sometimes be overwhelming I knew in that moment it was necessary for me to have gone through to get to this point in my life.