Holding tight to my “why”

Every day lately I feel like I have been struggling with my new transition. I keep waking up each day hoping that today will be the day that I don’t feel so crappy, that I won’t feel like I made a huge mistake. I still continue to show up and try to do my best but the whole time I am constantly questioning whether I should just give up or continue to lean into the change.

Today wheh I went on my lunch I sat outside underneath the bell tower and wrote in my journal. At half past the hour the bells chimed and it made me feel so grateful that I was able to be there in that moment. I thought about all the things I’m working towards in my life and I felt like even though it’s a struggle for me lately it’s exactly where I am supposed to be right now. I just need to lean more into this big change and really try to not get so down on myself. I think I need to stop worrying about the idea that I made a bad decision and just soak up as much as I can from the experience. It’s not a loss if I learn something in the process and if the few few weeks were any indication I will be constantly learning new stuff at my job. Tomorrow is a new day to try again.