When it gets hard I give up

Today was one of those days that I really just wanted to give up, and stop trying so hard. Every I day I am starting the day with the intention that I will not let my anxiety and panic disorder control how my day will unfold. It takes every part of myself to fight against these two things every day and some days I just really want to stop trying so hard. But I know that if I stop and give I will end up where I was over a year ago and I never want my anxiety and panic disorder to impact my life the way of did at that time.

Usually at this point I would give in and run away from every thing I am going through right now, but I don’t want to do that anymore. Like Elton John sings in Honky Cat “ Change is gonna do me good”. So tomorrow I’ll continue to show up and do my best and just take each day as it comes.