And just like that everything changes

A year ago I’m not sure I could have foreseen how much my life would change. But change happened, no matter how hard I tried to control everything around me. I tried to control and grasp at anything in hopes I could stop whatever was happening to me. Now looking back I’m thankful for this last year and all the hard work that I put into myself. It was probably the hardest year of my life but also the most rewarding. 

And on a random day, when I thought that I was destined to be stuck forever in a job that I disliked, my whole life changed with one phone call. I finally got the call that I had been waiting for, I was being offered a position at Mills College. I have been dreaming about making a new transition in my career for a long time but had only just started taking actual steps to making my dreams come true. I snapped the pictures above of my journal that day and every time I look at it I can feel the excitement I felt on that day to finally see all my hard work starting to pay off.

I always think of the quote by Mel Robbins “your new life is the cost of your old one” and it really is true. I had to give up my old life and all the expectations and things I had wrapped up in it in order to be where I am at today. It wasn’t easy at all and there are times that I still mourn the loss of my old life. But when I’m caught up in my nostalgia for the past I remind myself that the things that are happening right now in my life would not be possible without the loss of all that happened before. 

Today is my last day at my old job and I feel excited and nervous for the future but not enough to not go charging full speed ahead to my next chapter in life.