Intrusive thoughts
Can we talk about intrusive thoughts? I’ve decided they are like the mean girls in junior high that just don’t know when to stop. Lately those thoughts have been invading my brain slowing working their way into all my of thoughts.
I know better to give into them and obsess but it feels like with every thing else that is happening in the world I just feel weak against those harmful thoughts. A few months ago I was able to have an intrusive thought and then quickly let it go without taking it in and obsessing. Now lately it feels as if it’s the absolute truth every time I let one of those intrusive thoughts worm their way into my mind.
For the most part, my intrusive thoughts consist of a few things but they all center around the idea that I’m an awful and stupid person. They tend to be pretty tame but I’ve noticed that sometimes I find my intrusive thoughts to be dark and it’s sometimes scary to think that I can have those thoughts in my head. I know that they are just thoughts and that they only hold power if I allow them to have that power but sometimes I feel like I have no control over my own thoughts. I noticed when I feel out of control or overwhelmed I tend to want to run and hide. Instead of doing that this week, i’ve been trying to confront those intrusive thoughts head on, even the ones that scare me. When the intrusive thoughts comes up I sit with them and feel all the feelings it brings up and then let it go. It’s a work in progress but I know that just like everything else this too shall pass.
